As a Bipolar II individual, I know I will always have poor sleep behaviors. Recently, I’ve developed a pattern that exacerbates this ongoing reality: Working Out.
Every night I set my alarm to 6:00 am. Somewhere around 1 am I wake up and start to stress over whether or not I am actually going to get up and work out. I find myself what I call, float sleeping, where I am kinda asleep and kinda awake and every hour that reaches that 6:00 am mark causes me stress that shortens my sleep from 1 am to 6:00 am. My inability to be firm in my decision fuels an anxiety that I already have prevalent in my life with my condition, so in essence, I am contributing to this anxiety, I am creating such anxiety, I foster this anxiety.