Everything in my life has always been to the max! I want sauce on my pasta, it’s gonna be sauce, with some pasta. If I’m gonna work out, I’m gonna run five miles in the blazing hot sun. Everything has always been to the utmost extreme and I’ve never been able to temper it.
I even moved to England for a semester abroad in college to a secluded area in the woods to try and “change.” I was determined to find moderation and thought uprooting myself from New York City to a calm rural atmosphere I’d learn moderation. Not…so…much. I was isolated and bored out of my mind. I came back the same: still an extremist, still walking hard and talking fast, still overdoing everything, still the same.