anxiety and yogaWhen I was a junior in college my mind was starting to get the worst of me.  My anxiety was so bad that I decided to try yoga.  And like all things in my life I was going to do it to the max.  I had no money at the time and was sharing a loft in Harlem.  When my roommate went on vacation I decided to take charge of the living room floor space so I bought a tape, and practiced Ashtanga yoga, 1.5 hours a day, seven days a week, for a full three months straight.

I have to admit.  It truly helped.  My mind calmed down and I was able to sleep better.  It was great but due to the extremity of my practice I feared the return of my mind sans yoga which would ultimately occur when school started back up.

And it did. When school came around I didn’t have time to handle such an intense routine as part of my regular schedule.  Slowly my mind filled with anxiety and my old self returned.  I was so frustrated and angry I decided to take a different route.

I went to mental health services at my university and asked for help.  My first session didn’t go so well so I left and never went back. Once again, another extreme decision.

I dropped yoga out of my life as well as any initiative to seek psychiatric help.  And the spiral of mania swallowed me whole.

Ten years later I picked up yoga again after having my mental breakdown and subsequently opting to receive psychiatric help for life.

I look back and wonder why I needed to be so hard core about things.  I look now and am still hard core but at least I have my life experience, my meds, and my part time practice of yoga to try and ease up a bit and rid myself of allowing being hard core to be hard knocks.

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    Last reviewed: 9 Sep 2012

APA Reference
Loberg, E. (2012). Being Hard Core is Hard Knocks. Psych Central. Retrieved on March 5, 2015, from


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