Bipolar II

Going to the Gynecologist

I canceled my gynecologist appointment today cause I felt the way I felt when I first had my mental break and seeked help. And it happened to be in the middle of my gynecologist appointment.

JOURNAL ENTRY - THE BREAKTHROUGH MOMENT - 2005

I don’t think there is ever one breakthrough moment. I do, however, think bits and bits of pieces, days, nights, weeks, months of living in hell do eventually catch up with you. For me, my...
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Bipolar II

Bipolar II & Migraines

When I was a child I suffered from migraines. My pain was horrific and no pain reliever would alleviate the pain. My mom would sit by my bed holding a wet cloth on my forehead and must have felt hopeless. No parent wants to see their child suffer. No one else in my family seemed to undergo such pain. People would get headaches once and awhile but not to the extent I would endure.

I recently thought...
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Coping Skills

The Experiment: The Final Frontier

I have come to the end of my experiment. I’ve decided that although I have had to deal with the side effects of not taking my antidepressant, it’s better than the side effects I endured while taking my medication. I’ve learned that side effects are a real thing and can amount to turmoil and personal dilemmas. And, depending on which particular side effects you experience, it is up to each individual to decide for themselves whether...
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Coping Skills

5 Texts Women Don’t Want to Get from a Guy

W is for the Woman, G is for the Guy
W: are you?

G: are you?

W: I’m busy too…

G: Cool.

(Cool you wanna sound cool or cause you don’t want to hear from me again or you’re actually busy.)
# 2
W: It was great seeing you

G: You too…hope you are well ;)

(Sounds like a blow off but the smiley face confuses me.)
#3
W: What are you up to?

G: Working

W: Ah, ok…hope it goes well ;)

(I...
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Bipolar II

The Experiment

The experiment is beginning to rear its ugly depressed face. The experiment was to quit my antidepressant in an effort to lose weight I gained from the medication with the intention of going back on it when I was back to my normal size.

But I think it kind of blew up in my face. I’ve lost weight, which is good, but I feel the fallout of choosing my body over my mind in all this.

I am...
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Bipolar II

When You Make A Deal With Your Psychiatrist

I did it. I am done gaining weight on my antidepressant so made a deal with my psychiatrist. My psychiatrist thinks I am doing much better on my medication (which I agree) but I can't swallow the fat anymore so I proposed a compromise. The plan is to lose the weight, then go back on the medication, which I think is a great idea cause I actually feel better on it. So this deal makes my mission...
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Coping Skills

6 Things Not To Do When You Run Into Your EX

Don't sleep with him
Don't get all caught up in your head and lose your voice
Don't forget to breathe
Don't worry about your clothes
Don't think of all the things you want to say to him cause he's not going to get it anyway.
Don't let your set boundaries down, or loosen up your guard; you worked hard to get to the place you are now so show some pride, justice, and respect for the new you.

I've done all of...
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Coping Skills

Did you slip this Fourth of July?

I was walking to the market in my neighborhood yesterday and could swear I came across more smokers than usual walking along the street and puffing away. It was weird. It made me wonder if some people slipped over the Holiday, and broke their sobriety, or ate something on a list that was a no-no, or picked up a cigarette at a party and relapsed. Mind you this is prone to happen to anyone on any celebratory occasion....
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