You Want ME to Meditate… LOL!
My life is pretty chaotic. It’s the good kind of chaos, but chaotic nonetheless. A few monts ago I noticed that I’d been a little more stressed than usual and sharted this with a colleague. She suggested that I try meditating.
MEDITATE? I almost laughed out loud. Let’s be honest, I think my brain suffers from what I like to call “I can’t shut down syndrome”. I’d tried meditation before and it was an epic fail. I found myself picturing peaceful scenes only to be interrupted by my own random thoughts. I moved on to mantras that turned into thoughts ranging from what i was going to make for dinner to is it possible to count my eyelashes! Meditation was not for me, or so I believed


I am back from a small hiatus. It wasn’t a planned hiatus – life just happened. Trust me, when it happened it happened up, down, around, and all over me. Have you ever had one those days, weeks, or months when those “life happens” moments just keep coming – one after another, after another, after another? Within a few weeks I had some health issues, some frustrations, computer issues, some disappointments, along with some genuine “are you serious?” moments.
I was convinced I was dying. As a matter of fact, there was no way you could convince me otherwise. Oddly I accepted my fate and whispered to my husband “call 911, I’m dying”. I was sweating profusely, I could feel my heartbeat in my neck and my pulse echoed in my ears. I couldn’t breathe, my face felt weird, my hands were numb, and I was shaking like a leaf. EMS arrived and tried with all their might to convince me I wasn’t dying, but I was convinced they just wanted me to die peacefully without a fight. After some deep breathing and close monitoring I realized I wasn’t dying and was told I had an anxiety attack.
A few months ago a very good friend of mine said to me, “the majority of your frustrations are due to your unrealistic expectations.” I didn’t know how to feel about her statement. There I sat venting to her about the frustrations of my life, waiting for her to co-sign on my misery, and that’s what she gave me. I have to admit that it stung a little, but I slowly began to realize it was the truth.
We have all experienced a moment where we have been approached by a friend, co-worker, or maybe even a spouse and asked to do something we really didn’t feel like doing. We’ve also had those moments where instead of saying no, we’ve smiled and responded with the dreaded “yes”. So why do we have difficulties telling others no when we don’t feel like doing something?
Let’s be honest, we all have some time where we just don’t feel like it. The “it” may be going to work, tackling a project, completing chores, helping the kids with homework, or just getting out of the bed. Whatever the “it” is, sometimes we just don’t feel like doing it.
Earlier this week I challenged you all (and myself) to the 7 Days of Not Complaining. Well, the first day was an epic fail. I guess I shouldn’t call it epic, but it was not so great. I have to be honest though, I believe I’ve gotten a little better every day since then, and I believe this is something I can get used to.
In the last week I’ve noticed something about myself that was a little concerning. Life has been happening, and it’s been a little more chaotic than usual. Instead of taking it in stride, I’ve been complaining… a lot! I am not a chronic complainer. As a matter of fact, I usually find myself not only finding my silver lining, but finding it for others as well. This week, I’ve just been frustrated.
My last two blog posts explored exercising and eating well for emotional health. Now that we’ve covered eating and exercising, this blog will explore relaxing for emotional health.
My last blog included information exploring the benefits of exercising for emotional health. This blog will explore the benefits of eating well for emotional health.