Okay, so it’s no secret that I’ve been on a bit of down slope last past 45 days. Today, I came across www.whatsmym3.com. They have a free online psychological disorders test.

I thought, “let me just take the test to see if the results match up with what I already know.”  Will my Depression line up with the “NON diagnostic instrument” online test?  A score of 33 or greater means that your life may be impacted by a mood disorder. My results: 72…

Here are the results of What Is My M3 test said about my “down slope”: “Your responses on the depression scale indicate that there is over a 90% chance that you are suffering from Depression.”

Conclusion – This test seems to be right on the dot. Yes, dead center, hitting the nail straight on the head and pin pointed what I already knew… FEAR NOT… the good news is:  I’m 10% happier than I was two weeks ago.

Depressed Peer’s Smart Phone Alert: BAD MOOD Alert – 90% Depressed…Positive Thought: You’re 10% happier!!

Caption: New Depression App with a Positive Psychology Twist

Today, November 20, 2010 is Survivors of Suicide Day and I want to take a moment to write something from someone who has in his official mental health records”History of Multiple Suicide Attempts.”  It was not till I saw that in writing that I really thought and understood what that really meant….  (I’m @#$%ed)  This isn’t true, but at the time, I believed it to be.

Suicide is a reality, in a unreal mind!  It is not to escape life!  At the time we feel suicidal, it seems like the only way to escape our minds, our deep inner pains that seem at the time to be killing us.  There are many reasons for us not to do it!  But walk in the shoes of a suicidal mind and you will quickly learn that our reasoning center of our mind is distorted. Trapped, cornered, scared, not from death but from life. It is a scary time and if the signs are not noticed and help received then the end is suicide!  There is hope, there is recovery!!  No matter how bleak and dark life looks right now, you have to hear and believe …it will get better with you here not gone!!

Warning: This video contains photos of Suicide victims and could be a trigger.

Survivors of Suicide Day is November 20th, a day of healing for those who have lost someone they love to suicide. This video is my way to honor my peers and remembering the Fallen.  (YouTube Video Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8_2Zpg_JaQ)