Depression and Worries After Surgery

Things are going well after my daughter’s surgery.  She had a bone graft from her hip to her mouth to fully repair a cleft palate.  There are two surgery sites to watch out for and some rigorous care instructions and restrictions.  I’m so very glad to be over the hump, but the long haul of aftercare is here.

Lord, help me if we have to go through all this again.  My daughter, our family, and I know that if the post-surgery care isn’t followed to the letter, she could risk injuring the mouth surgery site or getting an infection.  Both of those things increase the chance that the surgery doesn’t take.  I’m certain there are parents who do everything right only to find that the surgery still didn’t take.  But I don’t want to know that I got lax on something that put her at risk.

It’s making me really protective of her and extra conservative about what she’s allowed to do.  I mean, parents are like that and I know I’m not unique in that sense.  But this isn’t just a bump on the head I’m trying to avoid.  I feel like there is so much at stake here, so much potential time and suffering on the line.  Even as I’m writing this I’m discovering that I have a lot of potential for guilt here if something goes wrong.  I”m her primary care person and I feel like the success of this surgery is on my shoulders.  And maybe, some of my motivation for being so conservative with her stems from trying to prevent the guilt.

What if I did let her cheat and walk on her own too soon?  What if I gave her something that wasn’t soft and liquidy enough?  What if I had a sitter here and my daughter fell or got really frustrated?  what if a stray ball did come close to hitting her in the face at recess when she’s still on restriction and I had said it was OK to stand outside?  These thoughts are all based on real risks, but it looks like I need to watch my thoughts.  I’ll need to face that worry straight on so it doesn’t take me on a ride.

I promise, I won’t be rambling about this for weeks, but I’ve had a lot building up in my mind while I was gone last week.  I hope to share my most meaningful discoveries and thoughts to give you insight into your own worries and negative thinking.  The important thing is that she is doing well.  And that gives my mothering heart some real peace.



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From Psych Central's website:
PsychCentral (June 29, 2009)

Post Surgery Thoughts On Depression and Worry | Family Mental Health | Get out of your Depression Rut! (June 30, 2009)

    Last reviewed: 29 Jun 2009

APA Reference
Krull, E. (2009). Post Surgery Thoughts On Depression and Worry. Psych Central. Retrieved on December 18, 2014, from



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