In thinking about the ways in which horses respond to borderlines, I thought I’d include this excerpt from my book, On The Back Of The Horse: Harnessing the Healing Power of the Human-Equine Bond:
“Where does your rage go?’ Dr. Heidel sat back in his chair and adjusted his tie. The cookie that had been “tempting him all day,” now tempted me. Anything to avoid answering that question.
It took him eleven minutes to ask it. I had looked at my watch when his secretary apologized for tardiness, and assured me that it was no reflection of his desire to meet with me. “He has been very busy today. But he wants you to know, he does want to meet with you. If you can just be patient he will get to you.” She leaned over me as I sat on the bench outside his office. She must be a mom. Either that, or she is used to assuring people waiting on Dr. Heidel.
“What?” I was buying time.
I had come to his office to ask about addiction. How it begins, what it does to people, and what happens if it is not treated. In searching for the answer to my question - if avoiding emotions was a way of functioning at all, I discovered a new world. A vast community all focused on one thing. It affects every facet of the population, and aside from the war, is what the government spends the most amount of money treating, and cleaning up after. No longer do we associate it with skid row, but instead, Rush Limbaugh – and after his stay at the prestigious Sierra Tucson, many other celebrities as well. Addictions are now ubiquitous. About as common as the flu, I realized.