Since I don’t have much on my mind tonight, I’ll respond to a cleaned up comment from a reader:
I have been on opiates for about 15 years now. I’m 43 and I have been through hell and back again. I’m doing the Suboxone thing now. It’s a little better than the methadone clinic; that place just wanted your money and they still treated you like a junkie with no hope ….hope…… I’m starting to wonder if there is a way out with Suboxone.
You have the same withdrawal problems trying to wean from it just like anything else. Your body has to adjust to being sober and being on Suboxone is not being sober. I hope someday the people at the clinics quit turning their heads and look at opioid users as real people needing real help. I would love to just stop taking the Suboxone. I am done (with taking it) but I have children and a wife to take care of and a demanding job that I have to keep so when am i suppose to find the time to go through the withdrawals?
It’s a messed up way of life with the appointments, with drug counseling during the middle of the day, and getting the script from the doctor, taking a pee test every time you go… oh well, this is what you have to do if you want a halfway normal life as an addict. It becomes a part of your life. It will be over someday, just not today.
Wow—so much for the joy of recovery! To the writer, I feel for you—you are clearly miserable. I will try to throw out a few suggestions, and I hope they are useful. I realize, of course, that some people are simply not as ‘happy’ as others; I’m probably more on the unhappy side myself, and there is only so much ‘cheering up’ that can be done for me—and I imagine the same is the case for you.