im a 25 year old male who has struggled with alcoholism for years maybe 2 years before you started. i then began smoking pot shortly after and was able to kick that habit when i was 22 i will be an alcoholic and a stoner for the rest of my life becuase of my past… thats not saying i live in my past but whats happed in my past will be their for the rest of my life and my moto is live love forgive and forget, except i cant forget and what ive learned in life. im glad to hear you were able to kick the drinking habbit and have been able to pinpoint whats be holding you back. ive seen therapists for four years now and they want to pump me full of drugs which i decline on a regular basis. i think the bestthing for depression is being able to write your thuaghts down even if you dont allow others to read them. for me im such an honest individual i want to help everyone out that i come accross. i know how crapppy life gets at times and ive never been in the suicidal state bewcuase i enjoy life way to much and i beleive that im so stong minded that its the easy way out. i want to make an impression upon whomever i can in this crual yet pleasant world. i enjoy reading blogs as youve written and its just a reasurement that im not alone. im embarressed at my english skills and wish i were more intelectual or well spoken but besides the point your blog/article was inspiring and keep up the good work and contiue to help others like myself out there. this is my therapy and my way to escape the little brown bottle by focusing on helping myself along with others. and i think it will help you out as well by blogging or even writting your thuaghts down regardless of them being published or not. i will bore no one any further but happy mothers day to all the great mothers out thier including mine and this should really be a day of helping the masses out becuase we all stem back to our creaters which is debatable for many but for me its my mother and bless all the women out their that keep this world going . Theriverklown@hotmail.com