Apparently, while in the stupor of my last depression, I was angry. It was hard to believe because all I wanted to do was sleep …
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Darren
5:10 am on
April 2nd, 2009Wow Christine! That’s a creative way to let out anger (with writing the names on the car, anyway). Sounds like it worked for you, but your therapist has a point. At least you’re aware of your anger’s potential. The pool strategy does sound less risky, but be careful not to ingest water when you scream! Ya know, I can really relate to the cause-effect relationship between inward-directed anger and depression, although it never crossed my mind that anger turned inward might be the cause of depression; that’s a great point! Do you think that gaining that cause-effect perspective made you feel better at all, just being able to pin down the inward anger as the catalyst?
Gaining a “cause-effect” perspective on my depression and behavior has been hugely rewarding. I am the kind of person who needs to know why things happen. Up until my diagnosis I did not understand why I said and did the things I did.
Now I know. My anger used to come out sideways at people who did not deserve it. My sarcasm is the byproduct of unresolved anger. I used to get angry at others, then angry at myself for getting angry at others. I beat myself up. I tell myself I am a bad person and then my depression is off and running.
I do not always handle my anger appropriately but I recognize when I am not handling my anger well. I also have learned to apologize, which defuses my anger and others’ anger.
Anger is a luxury I cannot afford. Discovering my anger and learning how to get rid of it has been a blessing of my diagnosis.
Nighthawk1979
9:24 pm on
April 4th, 2009Anger can be truly difficult to deal with but you certainly had a creative way of dealing with it!
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