I am bipolar in the first degree. Medications only make me sick. I frequently self-medicate with alcohol which has far fewer side effects than medication. I am hyper-sensitive to chemical meds.

I feel as though I’m going out of my mind at times with nobody to talk to. I’ve tried getting therapy with the local mental health department, but all they want to do is shove a pill down my throat that doesn’t work and has horrific side effects.

Yes, I am drinking today, but I don’t feel drunk. I haven’t eaten since yesterday and don’t feel very hungry. All I want to do is play games on the computer to disrupt my thoughts that invade my sanity.

I don’t know you, but you couldn’t be any more impersonable than my general practiioner or so-called therapists (a different person every visit). How cold is that?!

I need help! I haven’t been able to work since December 10, 2009. I’ve applied for Disability, but was denied the first time around. I’ve since obtained the services of an attorney and have pleaded assistance from my senator to speed up the process.

In the meanwhile, I am two months behind on my mortgage, cannot afford the basic necessities of living and cannot pay the monthly bills.

My daughter moved in with me about a year ago because the economy prevented her from making a living. She is a student trying to further her career in Pharmacology, but I can no longer help her. I feel adrift in this world and cannot cope.

Is ther any help out there for me????