My husband will nudge me gently maybe to take a second sleeping pill,
at night or just stop talking. I always hear it the love in his voice, whatever he says. Hospitalization is mostly out of the question.
I have been doing very well with maintenance meds for ten years but, for better or worse, have not erased the bipolar personality.

my best friend (I may have to say former best friend) has been maniac all summer and refusing to see it. I am angry and so I avoid her because I don’t want to risk saying something that I will regret. She would come up with ideas and then get mad at me for not going along with them. She blogs and went so far as to say “people are just jealous they didn’t think of my ideas first”. They are not great ideas.

Then there is the self-centered behavior. I call, email, text and ask her how she is. She will respond sometimes but just with a reply never does she ask about me. It is all about her. Because she blogs it is very interesting to see inside her mind. She actually blogs “I love my mania”. I can understand if someone doesn’t realize they are maniac but to type out the words and post them on the internet. At some point she needs to be responsible.

She has been playing with her meds all year either reducing or forgetting. Now of course she is in full blown depression, sleeping all day, missing work. Again all in denial why it is happening totally ignoring that she has not been taking her meds as prescribed.

I am tired and I want a real reciprocal two way relationship. I am not going to say anything because what is the point. She has an illness. I don’t want to cause pain. I am sorry that she has this disease as there are no others that create narcissism like bipolar..even cancer would be better as you can still have empathy. I miss my friend but even when this passes I am not sure I can trust my heart with the possibility that her brain will not tell her to stop taking her meds starting this rollercoaster all over again.
Bipolar is the worst disease in the world.

hello,
my husband was recently diagnosed bi polar. I have always know something wasnt right he constantly struggled with a poo addiction which he knew i hated and it almost ended our marriage and he would lie to me all the time about it. He was also in the miltary so he was good at covering it up. He would also make up lies that you would believe are real but doubt at the same time. He then would stop the porno for a while but develop a new obseccion and he just had to have it whether it was remote control cars or his job he always was obsessing about something and he could never be late he would leave hours before he had to be into work. he swears he never cheated on me but he has a way of lying you just believe him. he is always selfish always putting himself first his needs a wants i feel like i have 4 kids not three. he is on tegratol and was hospitalized this pat december he has never harmed me or the kids but has made threats. He is always tired always angry about something every little thing sets him off he is never happy its just a rollercoaster i dont think i want to be a part of. does it ever become managable?