That’s exactly what happened to me, many years ago. I was in the middle of a divorce from my husband of 24 years. He was gambling away our lives and our home. And, I had just found out my only child was a heroin addict. In short, my life was falling apart all around me. My family doc put me on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds. Then more. And higher doses. I was to the point where I couldn’t think, and I was crying *all* the time. He sent me to the hospital.

At the hospital, they didn’t even *consider* lowering the massive amounts of drugs I was taking. Indeed, they did just the opposite. They INCREASED the types of drugs and the amounts of them! I was a stoned out drug addict at that point – on legal drugs prescribed by the “good doctors!” HA! They told me to go on disability; that I would never work again!!!

That’s when I took myself off ALL of their garbage. And, I worked hard to get myself back on track. I got a full time job teaching high school history in an inner city. I do suffer from SAD. When it happens, I take 1/3 of the recommended dose of wellbutrin. It works.

The reality is, I was OVERMEDICATED from the start! And no one – no one at all – from my family doc to the “wonder workers” at a prestegious hospital in the NE ever considered the fact that they had doped me up! And that my “supposed” bipolar condition was indeed the condition created by them!

The Hippocratic Oath says, “First, do no harm.”
These doctors failed in their oath with me.
I wonder how many others are – at this minute – stoned out of their gourd, just as I was?
They are playing with people’s minds; they do NOT know how these drugs work; and yet, they dish them out like candy!
Shameful!

I am so grateful I was able to free myself from their drugs and their control. Today, it is 11 years since this harm was done to me. The memory of it still makes me angry! But, I learned my strength too.

Peace!

I try to go as alternative as I can. Many bipolars are lacking in the proper minerals. Do some research and keep a mood chart along with meds, dosages, reactions, special events. It will help you to determine what meds don’t work and at what level some do. Beware of doctors trying to “cold turkey” you from meds. Mine did and I suffered a manic episode that was very embarrassing. The results can also be life-threatening. Again, do your own research or ask your pharmacists. Sometimes doctors do make mistakes.

Looking back I realise that I was manic for much of my childhood, and this was occasionally seperated with a few days of crying and ditatchment. My parents always said I was the ‘exciting’ child, or that I had an ‘artistic temperment’. I had beleived this to be ADHD or similar, but now that my depressive/mild mania (now Im off the antidepressants it has calmed the mania a bit) I’m worried that I might be heading for a massive manic ep. How can I avoid or work round this? I’m about to start university and I have a small family and social groups to look after, but I really don’t want meds….

Ok, sorry for the rambling on, but I thought you people would probably be best to talk to, being wonderfully understanding.