Beth is a 30 year old wife, and mother of 4 beautiful children who was recently diagnosed with Ultra-Rapid Cycling Bipolar, Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, and Paranoia.
This came after a complete breakdown and psychosis which was so bad; I ended up being hospitalized for a few days. I’ve spent a lot of time researching my illness, as well as trying to find other women to relate to that could help me cope with the problems I have with medications, the rapidly changing moods, being a mother and a wife, taking care of myself and my home, and learning how to live a better life. It has been a struggle for me since day one and it is very disappointing to see that there aren’t any mothers out there telling their story.
I feel the stigma that bipolar means “crazy” keeps a lot of women from being open and honest about their illness, which breeds shame. No one should have to feel ashamed of themselves because of a label. We are all human and we all struggle to get through every day the same. Some moods take months to change where others it’s a matter of days. Regardless of the “type” of mood disorder we have we still need support.
Through my writing I aim to help other women and mothers out there. I feel everyone needs to have a better understanding of the shared challenge in learning how to live with, and survive, Bipolar. I also encourage those who are trying to understand the illness on a more personal level to help provide better support for a loved one to read what I have to say as well. A lot of mother’s are ashamed of the thoughts, feelings, and emotions they feel while facing the up’s and down’s associated with Bipolar. There is nothing to be ashamed of, and I am here to show that no one is ever alone.