The past few months have been pretty difficult. In fact, the past couple of years have been pretty hard. However, over the past week or so, things have felt a little smoother around here. I don’t know if it is the Welbutrin, or just life getting a little better, but I feel pretty good.
My dad and step-mom have had a rough time for the past couple of years as well. I’m that person that worries about everyone else first and myself last. Knowing my dad and step-mom have been having such a tough time has been extremely stressful for me too. I talked to them both yesterday, and was delighted to hear how wonderfully they are doing now.
My step-mom, who was in pretty severe heart failure, has received a clean bill of health. Whew! Also, my dad has moved to a different real estate company where they are very good to him. His previous office was a very shady one (at best) and they were basically screwing him over. He’s a very hard working man and always has been, and he deserves respect and finally has it. Yay!
Hearing the joy in my dad’s voice last night really gave me a wonderful sense of peace. I no longer feel like I have to worry so much about them, and that feels great. My mom, however, is still over in Germany and isn’t doing too good herself. She is homesick and misses everyone, but she should be moving back sometime in the next year or so, which is exciting for everyone. It will be nice when she’s home.
My uncle who has been struggling with cancer has also been doing much better. For a while we didn’t even know if he was going to make it. The chemo was killing him. He also got great news, after starting a new pill form of chemo, that he has turned a corner and is doing very well. Yay!
My kids go back to school tomorrow after a long 3.5 week “track-out” and I am so ready! The house has been neglected in a really bad way with them home, and I can’t wait to get back into the swing of things again. It’s been a bit tough with these little rugrats home with me.
My husband has a 3 day weekend coming up due to his shift change, and he took an additional day off of work so we can head to the beach for a long weekend. I am THRILLED! I can’t wait for a little escape from everything for a nice mini-vacation. Yay!
My dad told me he is going to venture down next week when I have my hearing for SSDI to be my support person. I am very nervous about the upcoming hearing and the possibility of being in the spotlight and having some sort of meltdown. My dad is a great support for me, and he doesn’t have the anxiety that both my husband and I have about this so I think he will be an excellent source for support and strength for me. I was concerned about him taking off and being able to come but he assured me it is not a problem. Yay!
My husband also took us all to a Japanese steakhouse on Sunday night for dinner. It was so wonderful! I didn’t feel anxious or annoyed. I wasn’t uptight and overwhelmed. It was just a nice and relaxing dinner with my hubby and kids. We all enjoyed ourselves so much. What a fantastic weekend we had! We even got out Saturday night together for a little him and I time, which was also amazing.
We will find out today if we will be able to get a new home loan. I am frustrated and anxious over this process, but I am praying for good news on that end. I put our family in such a horrible place financially, and now that we are stable again I am hoping we can take that next step and move into our own home. A brand new, bigger home. Each child can have their own room, and hopefully it will stop some of the constant fighting we have going on. Not to mention having enough space for all of us will be nice too!
There are so many positives happening right now and I am trying to remain positive and keep my head up. It feels good to have some of the major stress in my life finally calming. I can’t remember the last time I said “yay” so many times! Yay!
I could really get used to this.
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Last reviewed: 19 Apr 2012