After publishing my last post I had found myself unable to write again. It was probably the toughest post I have ever written and published. There are so many feelings that surround a sexual assault, and it took me a little while to sort through that. It’s okay though, I worked through my issues and I’m doing better now. I’m ready to write again!
Initially when I started seeing my p-doc she thought I had narcolepsy. It was visited only briefly as other problems started to become more of a priority. So much is coming to light now that my head feels like it’s going to spin.
My latest appointment was pretty informative, at least on the medical side. I have always had “nap attacks” for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I can push through them, most of the time I can’t. Lately it has been getting worse, which may seem odd because I have been doing pretty okay. I have my moments but overall I’m not doing too bad right now.
A couple of weeks ago the nap attacks started after about 3 months of not having them sneak up on me. I noticed a pattern with the nap attacks, however: they only happen when I am doing okay. If I am doing really bad, suffering from severe anxiety or paranoia, or if I feel depressed, the nap attacks just don’t happen.