When I was diagnosed with Bipolar I will admit, I was a little scared but also felt an incredible sense of relief.  I had answers but I didn’t know what to do.

I looked online for support for mothers and women specifically struggling with Bipolar and found very little support.  There are books and support systems out there for the general public that talk about bipolar, but what about my marriage? What about my kids? Who can help me with those battles?

The more I searched, the more I read horror stories of people who are not medicated and not in treatment, doing terrible things to their families, and I knew that wasn’t any good for me when I was struggling to make myself a better woman.  Out of my frustrations I started writing.

My wonderful husband encouraged me to start blogging about it, so I created a website and did just that, started telling my story.  Then I was invited to blog with Psych Central and I was thrilled.  Finally, someone had a voice on the “real” woman behind bipolar, and that voice was me.

I know I am not perfect and I do not try to be perfect, but I am me.  I am flawed, I make mistakes, and sometimes I am not the woman I want to be, but I am still a beautiful woman with a strong voice and I want to be heard.

I talked about the easy stuff first, and then I decided if I am gonna tell my story, I will tell it all.  The good, the bad, and most certainly the ugly.  My life has not been easy, and I’ve been really good at escaping responsibility for my actions over the years, but I am ready to own up to my mistakes, learn from them, and become a better woman.

I am a wife, mother, sister, daughter, grand-daughter, aunt, niece, and friend.  Again, I am not perfect, but I am me and this is my life.  While many of my blogs may spawn all sorts of comments both good and bad, I will keep writing.  I will continue to talk about my marriage, my kids, and my life.

If I offend anyone with my candid approach, I am terribly sorry.  It’s the way I cope, and I only want to share my thoughts and feelings about certain events in my life in an effort to reach other women who may feel alone, with the same struggles I have faced and overcome.  Many of my feelings and actions are not admirable (even by a stretch) but that’s okay, and a lot of people may look down at me, and that’s okay too!  I know I have made mistakes, but if just one woman can relate to what I write and find comfort, courage, forgiveness, and strength through me, then what I am doing is well worth it.

For those who read my blogs and support what I am doing, I must say thank you.  I will continue to be your voice, and I will continue to speak for you!

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    Last reviewed: 24 Feb 2011