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Rexulti, moods, and psychosis

I am now back on 4mg of Rexulti - the highest normal dose. I feel good. Wish my boyfriend was here for a hug - but my mood seems pretty stable and not depressed.

I feel like a guinea pig on this Rexulti experiment. It has only been FDA approved since this past summer, but not for bipolar disorder. It was cleared for {MDD) major depressive disorder and schizophrenia.

I am majorly...
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How Do You Help Your Partner When They Are Depressed?

I have a boyfriend. He is great. Kind. Generous when he can be. A great cook. A good kisser. And he is hilarious - or at least was.

I met him at the beginning of September, before the sun started setting early, before it got cold. He lives with depression, and as a part of that, seasonal affective disorder (SAD).

As the sun started to wane so did his smile and his excitement for life....
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How To Get The Unobtainable Meds

As you all may know, I take quite a few meds. Many for my mind, others for things like my thyroid. The pharmacy knows me and I've been here 5 months. Anyway, lately I've had a major problem, with one of my meds stemming from my insurance (of course).

First of all, my doctor put me on Rexulti, gave me samples to try it out. I liked it. I felt it helped lift...
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5 Tips To Handle Social Anxiety

I have anxiety disorder. I am not sure how to explain this to someone who has not experienced a panic attack. I hate grocery stores. Eight years ago I would leave my half-filled cart  in the back of the store and bolt. I hate them because I can't see who is around the corner, on the next aisle. It stems from an abusive relationship, but just this past weekend I...
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Cabin Fever

For half of the country we are dealing with unusual amounts of snow. I heard Nashville "ices." Tell that to the few inches of snow outside my door and on my car. My yard doesn't have a complete fence so I take my dog out on one of those long retractable leashes. She is a Bernese Mountain Dog and LOVES the snow. Where she goes, I go.

My roommate and my boyfriend...
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The Winter Blues

This time of year is rough for those of us that deal with depression (bipolar or otherwise). There is all this hype about the holidays and you even find yourself a wee bit excited about what's under the Christmas tree. You get to go to parties, spend time with family and friends - it can be a very social time. And then there is New Year's Eve and the promise of a...
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The Ever-Changing Meds

Quick update for all of you out there in medication land. The new medication I've been trying for the past few weeks is called Rexulti. It is a newer medication on the consumer market. I seemed to agree with it and would even say that I had bit more zest for life and less depression. (Yay)!

BUT

My insurance will not cover it because my doctor requested it for bipolar disorder and it is...
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ECT – Electroconvulsive Therapy

(This article originally appeared on on January 7th, 2016).

If you’ve seen the movie One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest, you may recall the fearsome side effects of electroconvulsive therapy (ECT), as famously depicted by Jack Nicholson: convulsions so violent a patient needs to be physically restrained; no anesthesia; and mental fogginess that lingers long afterwards, even permanently. These issues and the lingering stigma they cast meant shock therapy fell out of...
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Being Beautifully Bipolar

Some people think I have it easy. I have bipolar disorder and I have everything under control and the sun shines on me wherever I go and I've mastered the art of living with this illness. People think because I am not hospitalized at the moment or am not suicidal that things are good.

But being beautifully bipolar is hard as hell, nearly all the time.

Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder characterized with...
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