In the past I thought that that everything in life was better if I was drunk or high. I believed every experience could be improved if I altered it in some way.
‘I’m going on a date… we will have more fun if we are drinking.’
‘I have to clean the house… this will be much more pleasant with some wine.’
Eventually things got to the point that I felt, ‘I woke up this morning… this entire day will be better with alcohol.’
I have been actively working on recovery from addiction and mental illness for the past 6 months. Since I have made my recovery my number one priority in my life, I have seen life change in ways I didn’t know were possible. It is a lot of work and I still face challenges every day, but it has been worth it.
I know it sounds corny, but the authentic happiness I feel now from my life experiences is better than any high I ever had. I didn’t think it was possible for me to ever reach this point.
In this video I talk about my past and the things I am doing now to work on my recovery. I know everyone has to find their own path to recover. This is just what has worked for me. I think the key is just giving it your all no matter what you decide to do. I will be doing a follow-up video to tell you all more about the things I do day to day to work on my mental health and recovery.
Website – www.daniz.me
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Even though it’s not always fun, I think I am finally learning what it means to be a grateful recovering addict with mental illness. I am specifically recovering from alcoholism, sex and love addiction, borderline personality disorder and bipolar. In this video I talk about the things I am thankful for in my recovery. Now I can see; if it wasn’t for my past I wouldn’t be the person I am today.