My homicidal ideation continued for 8 years with my younger son. It finally went away when I read a Jerilyn Ross technique which basically taught me that it was just a thought which I had no intention of following through on. After years of hell, that was a major relief (my son is now 14). Of course, it helped that we managed to finally get his chronic asthma under control enough that we were both able to sleep through the night.

I also had these kind of thoughts for a few weeks after my son was born, and I truly thought I must be the only one with such bizarre thoughts. Seems like I’m not as alone as I had thought! I wish other new mothers had a way to know that they are not alone.

Im glad im not alone however im still having those bad thoughts eventho my baby is almost 9 months now it is terrible and i love her so very much but i dont know why i still have those thoughts..i dont i would ever hurt her but all my thoughts were terrible..i talked to my husband about it all the time he said the reason why im having these thoughts is becuz i love her so much and i wwanted to protect her and that i think about terrible things that could happen to her but still,,in my thoughts it was me harming her not someone else…i hate that i still have these thoughts..i told my doctor about it and she sent me to a counselor but due to work i never made it back for the 2nd appointment..and until now and its been almost 9 months…my husband said im overprotective..and i loveee my baby more than anything but why am i having these thooughts..i wish it could just go away.its killing me..:-(
what book was it u said u read it and it helped?? i stay home with my baby 4 days a week and work the rest of the day and i enjoy every mins i spend with her but still thesee thoughts creep in every nite and i dont know how to get rid of it. i try not to think about it but it keepps coming back…i hate it when i see my baby gets hurt like vaccine or falls.and i always feel like i cannt forgive myself for not being able to prevent her from falling and hurting hersellf (i always cry when they give her shots) but the opposite is in my thoughts.why is this,,can someone pls tell me? If this will happen again when i have another baby..i ‘d rather not…i absolutely dont wanna have to go thru this again…Thoughts of hurting my baby make me feel like a terrible person and i just wish it will gooooooooooooooooo awayyyy

Omgoodness Thank God I have finally found out that I’m nit Aline either being a young mom at the age of 17 was hard enough but having thoughts of hurrying my baby made me disgusted almost to the thought where I thought I was incapable of taking care of him . I also have been going to counseling and Going to God with these thoughts and fears I strongly recommend that as well . I also have decided not to have any more kids ever due to these things !