What, exactly, does that mean?
I had a relatively “bad” day yesterday.
The back story: Yesterday, I was scheduled to give one of my twice-monthly workshops. I love doing them, but they also make me nervous (I’m less nervous every time, but, still…). So this made for an undercurrent of bad mood.
Then, we’ve been having amazingly bad winter weather here, right in the middle of final exams week. School keeps getting canceled and, as a tutor, my schedule gets thrown up in the air every other day. It’s really stressful.
The ice storm yesterday also threw into doubt whether or not to hold my workshop. Was it worth it? Would anyone show up? I was tempted to cancel (it would have been a great excuse which would have allowed me to escape my stage fright)…but I didn’t, because…
I realized that this was a great opportunity! I could hold my workshop, and it would be good practice for me…and if no one showed up, I’d be able to blame it on the weather (instead of worrying that “maybe people aren’t interested in hearing me”).
In fact I had a surprisingly nice turn-out, intrepid souls who braved the awful weather to hear me talk about the effects of stress on relationships.
I’m learning that I don’t have to be a victim to my emotions. If I’m having a “bad” day, I can probably find some ways to help myself.
I’m also learning to write the good feelings down. I tend to write when I feel bad, which is so helpful for processing. But, it’s equally important to write down and reflect on the good days, for a balanced perspective.
On my next bad day I’ll be able to go back and read this!
(photo of my beloved picnic table; I’m enjoying looking at it and anticipating the summer days ahead!)
Last reviewed: 31 Jul 2011