I’ve been working through Jack Kornfield’s series; “The Inner Art of Meditation’, and I have to say I am incredibly impressed with his instruction and ability to ground us in our practice. I never thought of myself as particularly ‘H’ of ADHD, but more of an I for impulsivity. In working through meditation, I am finding I am much, much more H than I never realized, and that in sitting through this H using meditation I can dramatically impact how it influences my life.
I had a horrible meditation yesterday, and every inch of my being was kicking and screaming saying MOVE. I was just SO uncomfortable in my sitting position and it was painful to sit still, not because of any medical condition but just because I wanted to explode physically like I was about to fall over in a chair and had all that building energy. I did it anyway.
After the sitting, Jack Kornfield talks about what to do if you have that total and complete restless feeling in you. That feeling of “I can’t sit here for another second” using whatever excuse you need to get you out of the feeling. He said if it gets THAT hard, and your mind simply WON’T sit still… (drum roll)… too bad, sit through it, you aren’t going to die, nobody has ever died from restlessness. So much for my pass to escape.