So, I'm on holidays. And it's great. I'm writing my blog, I'm doing little technical things for the online magazine I work for, I'm taking pictures and posting them to social media, and doing more technical things for the online magazine I work for, and writing my blog again, and doing more technical things … well, you get the picture, I'm sure.
I'm also moving back and forth from the lake house where holidays happen, and home, where theoretically holidays don't happen. That's because there are work things that need to be done.
So some people, friends on social media, know that I'm supposed to be on holidays, and they know that I'm still working. And someone asked me what would I do if I went on holidays and couldn't work. And without thinking I replied "Go home."
I've finally found something that I can concentrate on, focus on, pay attention to ... It's not a good thing.
I'm having some breathing troubles … again. And it's not easy to ignore the feeling that there's no oxygen in the room.
As a person with ADHD who has a fair share of the hyperactive attributes in his combined type mix, I often discover that my breath is being kept from me when I become active.
I'm on vacation. Yes. Right now. I'm sitting in a chair, looking out over a vast expanse of open water, my feet up, my soul filled with contentment, my mind … well, never mind what my mind is doing.
So why am I writing a blog post while I'm on vacation? Because … well ... because, shut up, that's why.
Honestly, I don't know why. I could have taken the week off and caught up next week. Or I could have scheduled a post or two in advance and been free of the burden of upcoming deadlines.
But instead, I just thought, “Lets see what happens.”
I don't do art. But I love art.
Okay, I'm getting the evil eye from folks who think that photography is an art form. And I'd say they are right, it is. And I do that.
Also, I should mention that I am thinking of the visual arts here. I'm not excluding music, poetry and literature from the arts, I'm just not talking about them in this post.
And so, what I meant to say was, I do not draw or paint or sculpt. I doodle sometimes, but not like I did in school when there was nothing else interesting to do.
Everyone multitasks. Or at least they believe they multitask. The truth is that they actually do little parts of multiple tasks in alternating sequence. Few people can actually do more than one thing at a time.
But that “parts of multiple tasks in alternating sequence” thing, that's pretty good. And if we're going to look at humankind's abilities and say that within those abilities this is what we're calling multitasking, than yeah, we all do that.
And some of us do it more than others, better than others also. Like any other activity in our arsenal, there is a spectrum of competence. But ...
I had a great idea for a blog post today. It was so good I thought I'd never forget it. You're reading this instead.
But you know, for the most part, I write things down now. I have a note pad and a pen in my pocket at all times. And sometimes when it's time to write a post, all I have to do is read my note pad and there are a whole bunch of ideas.
Admittedly, some of them sounded better before I wrote them down. Somehow a lot of them lose something in the brewing and steeping that occurs in my pocket after being recorded.
For people with ADHD, relaxing is something we just barely understand the idea of. And while we are aware of how it is supposed to work, few of us have truly experienced relaxation for more than a moment or two at a time.
In fact, for some of us, the thought of sitting still and quiet is unnerving. And actually doing that? Sitting still and quiet? That's been a threat of punishment for us since grade school.
What exactly is relaxing? For most of the world, relaxing involves sitting still and meditating or maintaining our mind calmly and quietly. Often when people “go” to relax it involves finding a place where responsibilities don't exist and then wallowing in that lack of responsibility.
I'm not ADHD. And ADHD isn't me.
I have ADHD, but that's not who I am. You can get to know me and never suspect that I have ADHD. Because again, that's really not who I am.
I can take a course in just about anything. I may do well, or I may struggle. Either way, it may be because of my ADHD, but you will never know that, because I'm a person. I'm not ADHD.
Today isn't my best day. Today is Tuesday, July 21st. You're reading this on Wednesday if you're reading it fresh. Tuesday is my wedding anniversary. Or it would be if I weren't a widower.
And Wednesday? (Today for you.) Wednesday is the anniversary of my wife's passing. I'm writing this on Tuesday while knowing that it will be published on Wednesday and it's hard to keep my focus on writing about ADHD with these things being part of the flavor of these days.
It's interesting to note that, because of poor time management and poor time awareness, I have at least once discovered that these two anniversaries have slipped by unnoticed by me until they were in the past.
I'm always amazed by the success of negative advertising. If you can't present positive aspects of your own program, then pose questions that raise doubt about the competition.
This approach works often in politics, and I see it more and more in the health care industry.
In order to raise doubts, it seems the best thing is to ask questions that make others look bad. Consider the question “Yes or no, have you stopped beating your children yet?” You can't answer that without incriminating yourself. This isn't a common question we see in the attack ad world, but we see questions that, like this one, assume things not in evidence and ask people to decide what they think of the unproven supposition.
The other day I read a private diatribe on how the American Medical Association's top mission was to eradicate competitors. Apparently, according to this posting, homeopathy had once been “dominant over medical schools.”