I need to write this post quickly, before I forget what I’m writing about. Wait, is that old age that causes that?
Or is it ADHD. In actuality, I’m only 55 … but geez, even saying that makes me think “Who? Me? 55? Really?”
You see, I feel, mentally that I’m 18. Also, I feel emotionally like I’m 25. All right, all right, 22.
And while I have, in fact, a rather remarkable memory for things that have happened and for mostly useless bits of trivia, I don’t remember enough to be able to feel like I’ve lived for 55 years.
Being a rural Canadian, there are naturally some things I need. I need to see the Canadians play hockey whenever they’re playing on the world stage.
I need to be submersed in fresh water several times each summer season, and that doesn’t mean in swimming pools.
I need some snow each year, and I need some sun. It’s the way it is. I can’t help it.
Being a person with ADHD, there are other things I naturally need. I need to be challenged in order to be able to focus. I need notes in order to be able to keep track of things I’d easily forget, and sometimes still do.
First, I have to say, it’s been two days since I last wrote in here.
Those two days have been hectic ones to say the least. I spent one working hard and running from job to job and the other looking for work, but not finding any.
So, hectic days. Yep, that’s right, pretty much normal.
I had a great childhood, but I had a rough time anyway.
When I was growing up, we didn’t know about ADHD. That was partly because we lived in a somewhat remote area, but mostly because ADHD had not been defined at that point as ADHD.
Back then, it was called Minimal Brain Dysfunction, and we certainly had never heard of that.
Symptoms. You’re saying we have symptoms in common, and of course you’re right. I thought the same thing when I first considered this title.
For instance, if you have ADHD – Predominantly Inattentive type, then we possibly share being distracted, forgetful and disorganized. We are likely to have poor concentration and spend more time than we should daydreaming. Oh, and we may also have difficulty completing tasks. Lucky us.
If you have ADHD – Predominantly Hyperactive type, then we possibly share a tendency towards excessive fidgeting, and being restless. We might share hyperactive, and we probably have difficulty waiting in line or staying seated when needs dictate that we should. We might also have a tendency toward , immature and/or destructive behavior. (Who? Me?)
We, as the human race, deal with spectrums all the time. There is the spectrum of intelligence. And within that there is the spectrum of so called normal intelligence.
There is the spectrum of wealth, from extreme poverty to the one percent. There’s the spectrum of physical health from terminally ill to in the pink. And there is the spectrum of behavior, from locked up with the key thrown away (and in some places that would be on death row) to being the pinnacle of society and a shining example to all of humanity.
ADHD definitely has a negative effect on my life. I missed my dental hygienist appointment on Monday. I wasn’t late, I didn’t go. I was looking for it on my phone calendar today to see what time it was and discovered it was yesterday.
Okay, that’s kind of like being late. But that won’t hold me back. Not in my career, not in my life. I’m not an actor, I don’t make a living with my smile.
Do you have ADHD? Do you find yourself easily distracted? Do you think sometimes that you are so different you may have originated on a different planet?
Do you forget things? Do you forget the list when you go shopping? Do you stray from the list if you remember it?
Do you forget appointments you’ve made? Do you forget to make appointments? Do you forget where you were going? Do you forget birthdays, anniversaries, dates and social gatherings?
I love working by myself. I can chatter away at my boss and I know he’s no smarter than I am.
And if I do something that has ADHD written all over it, I don’t have to explain it to anyone … well, maybe the client.
And if I choose to do things in ways that don’t make sense to others but do to me, that’s okay. I understand.
So I guess the deal is, when I work for myself, I have an understanding boss.
In the past 24 hours I’ve done many things. Did it seem unusual? No. Was it unusual? Not for me.
Why am I writing about it? Well, in retrospect, I think it might be one of my more distracted, scattered and diverse days. Certainly not the most, just one of the more.
First, I’m writing this late Thursday night. I’ll post it in the morning. I’m telling you this so the time line won’t mislead you.