Firstly, I apologize for the sorry pun. But it works on so many levels … well, okay two, it works on two levels. The sorry pun is one level.
The other level is the fact that denial is the full time facilitator of procrastination.
I don’t mean that we deny that tasks exist, or that they need to be done. We’re smarter than that.
We deny that the imperative nature of a thing is … well, is as imperative as it is.
You may have heard me quote from the International Consensus Statement on ADHD from January 2002 before. I rather like what it has to say. Basically, it tells us that there isn’t the “the jury is out” scenario that some journalists would have us believe.
I borrowed the title of this blog post from that statement. The full quote I wanted to use as a title was too long …
ADHD is not a benign disorder. For those it afflicts, ADHD can cause devastating problems.”
I just spent a very long weekend. Actually, I spent a long week leading up to the weekend. I mentioned I’ve been working as a volunteer, helping to get the 39th Annual Summerfolk Music and Crafts Festival ready.
Well, we succeeded. But my writing suffered. I missed my deadline last Monday, and again today. I still published, but late.
Last Friday I started a small temporary part time job. Helping set up for a local folk festival.
The hours are long and the work is hard, but on the other hand, the pay is lousy. I get my admission covered to get into the festival for the whole weekend.
Before I tell you about working in a crowd, I should point out that the band, “Our Shotgun Wedding,” that recorded one of the songs I wrote, is playing in this festival. So being there for this weekend long show is really high on my priority list.
Today is the first full day, since the birth of Robin Williams, that we will have to make do without his presence in our world. For so many of us that is going to be difficult.
I’m not prone to fame fuelled hero worship. A person has to be more than well known for me to admire them. Admittedly, it is easier to determine whether or not a person is worthy of admiration if they are well known.
Mr. Williams was thought to have ADHD, though he never confirmed that. He was known to have substance and alcohol abuse issues, and was reportedly known to have Bipolar Disorder and Depression.
So many people think that Depression (with a capital “D”) and depression are varying degrees of the same thing.
Like all health issues, an ADHD diagnosis requires that you manifest a certain percentage of the symptoms that define the disorder.
But there’s more to it than that. You also have to manifest those symptoms in more than one setting.
And still you may not receive a diagnosis. There is one last requirement. You see, these symptoms also have to impact your life negatively.
Have you ever felt like life is a show? Does it seem like you’re constantly trying to act in an acceptable way? Are you on guard all day, every day, to make sure that you don’t do the wrong thing, say the wrong thing, or miss the point that everyone else is getting?
I’ve spent a lot of my life engaged in that activity, and I have to say that it’s tiring, most of the time. But there is a time when I don’t worry. It’s when I’m on stage.
There are people who say that having ADHD makes you creative. And there are those who say that that hasn’t been proven. And there are those who say that ADHD creativity is a myth.
I say that creativity is a matter of creating. And creating requires you to be able to concentrate on the process. And concentration on a single process is what is known as focus.
Having ADHD is pretty much the opposite of being able to focus, at least on things that you choose to focus on. “But we have hyperfocus.” I hear you saying. And yes, there are times when we can zone in on something But Dr. Charles Barkley suggests that “hyperfocus” is the wrong name for that.
Interesting how the mind works, or in some instances doesn’t work. I went to bed on Wednesday night, a tired man. I was counting on getting lots of sleep, counting heavily on it.
And sleep I did. I know this because every time I woke up I realized I’d been asleep. I’ve had this happen before, it isn’t pleasant.
Sometimes it occurs because I had my last cup of coffee for the day to long before going to bed. I need that coffee to be right before my bedtime if I’m going to count on my mind not zinging around like a bullet in a steel barrel. Counter intuitive, I know, but that’s me, your friendly neighbourhood ADHD enigma.
I’ve told you all before how I get caught up in my schedule. Not caught up as in everything done, caught up like a fish in a net.
And I know I’ve mentioned that it seems to happen without me seeing it coming. It’s usually like a walk in the park … that suddenly results in being lost in the woods in some nightmare situation with wild animals and movie demons chasing me.
Then there’s a bunch of different colored doors but they’re all locked and I have a key but I don’t know which door it opens and it’s color is some kind of wonky plaid tie-dye …ENOUGH!