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Schrödinger’s Notes

Well, I've done it. I've really lodged myself in to a predicament now. Those of you who are following along may, at this point, be wondering what I'm talking about. You may be saying to yourself, "Is he referring to having promised holiday content and not delivered?" Or you might be saying, "Oh, oh, has something gone wrong with the sale of the house? Like, maybe it's going ahead and he's realizing he's got a month to do three weeks worth of work but no time for the three months of overthinking he'll have to do to get that three weeks work done?" Or you might be thinking, "Has he run out of coffee?"
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ADHD: The “Wait, What?” Disorder

I never noticed before, how often I am taken by surprise by my life and the things that go on in it. That's probably because I've never lived any other life but mine and it has been full of surprises. Not always big surprises, and not always true surprises. In fact, I'm looking at a Monday ahead of me here and I'm unsure about whether I have something I'm supposed to be doing tonight. If I do, then I've already heard about it, accepted it as my fate whether it is something good or bad, and filed it away in my Swiss cheese mind. So when I find out or am told about this evening's activities, if there are any, I'll have a moment of doubt, along with the nagging feeling that I've heard this somewhere before.
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Carpe Demens

If you have ADHD you have problems. Period. End of story. Yes, yes, I know. It's a gift. You're exactly the way you're supposed to be. You're amazing and all that. I'm not arguing any of that. I'm saying that there are documented issues that cannot be considered positive and can very much be considered negative. And they are developmental.
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Stress Stresses Me

You know what? I can pass myself off as someone without ADHD. People can't tell by looking at me much of the time. You know, as long as I leave my name tag at home. But there are things that give me away. When I'm excited, it's hard for me to sit still. Well, it's actually hard for me to sit still when I'm bored too. Aw who am I kidding? It's often just hard for me to sit still. And sometimes I say things that could be deemed inappropriate. And sometimes I get distracted. And sometimes I do things that could be considered dangerous without thinking them through thoroughly.
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Out Of ADHD Prison

On Friday we talked about how to get yourself into prison, especially if you have ADHD. If it's something you aspire to, then your impulsivity and lack of executive function can be great tools to help you achieve this goal. If prison is something you would rather avoid, then it's best to discover how to manage impulsive behaviour and compensate for a lack of E.F. in advance of becoming responsible for your actions. And if you don't, you might end up in the general population of the corrections system. You might end up ... in stir, as they say.
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Remember Everything

Recent studies suggest that memories, especially ones about ourselves, are likely suspect. That's not to say that they are false, but they may have details that have been manufactured, and they may have left things out. It's also suggested that some of your memories might not be real at all. And this is important to people with ADHD. Very important. It won't make any difference to how you behave, how your mind works. But it can make a great deal of difference in how we live, a great deal of difference to the stigma we experience at our own hands.
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Distracted Driving? Welcome To ADHD

I keep thinking that being a school bus driver would be a perfect job for me. I don't mind getting up early. I'd have the end of my mornings and the beginning of my afternoons free, and I could still write, probably as much as I already do. And yet, I really do know better. The repetitive aspect of driving a bus would mean I'd become inattentive. I'd start to forget little things. Things like that it was Monday, or I'd leave my license and bright yellow vest at home. Next it would be where I was going. Eventually I'd forget to pick up kids or drop them off where they were going.
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ADHD Coming Down

Ability to focus or not, I can work on things. But I don't want to talk about focus today. Nor do I want to talk about hyperfocus, or whether it exists, or whether it should be called perseveration, or whether it can be used to our advantage ... Nor do I want to discuss how long it can take one of us to do a large project and see it through to the end. Some of us can, most of us struggle, some of us fail. 'Nuff said. I also don't want to talk about time perception, or time management, though I do want to talk about
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ADHD Back On Medication

I'm serious. I'm thinking about this. I'm thinking this is something I could do that would be positive. And yes, I mean back on medication. Yes, I've been on medication. And yes, it did help. So now you're asking why I'm not currently medicated, right? Okay, some of you are asking that, and some of you may just be saying, “Who cares?” And some of you may even be screaming at your screens saying, “DON'T DO IT!!! Where to start ... lets start at the beginning. When I was first diagnosed, my diagnosis came with a recommendation that I be given a prescription for Methylphenidate. You'd know it by its more common name of
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ADHD And Media Misrepresentation

A friend named John wrote to me recently complaining of a so called news story by HuffPost Science. Damn! I liked them. They seemed to be mostly on the ball. Well, until they started spouting anti-vax rhetoric and then ... well, read on. Sadly, a lot of news organizations have jumped on the old “ADHD May Not Be Real” band wagon. They say nothing really. They quote people who sound like they might know something, quote them as if they did know something. The match pro opinion against con opinion and set it up to look like there's some kind of validity to the argument.
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