Archives for ADHD
Quick, where's your umbrella? Front hall closet, maybe?
Nope,it's not there. That's where I would have guessed too, but we were both wrong. Maybe you left it in the car? I checked for mine in my truck behind the seats, but it wasn't there. You go look and see.
No, eh? Sorry, I thought you'd have been luckier than I was.
Where else could it be? Beside the back door? Did you loan it to someone? Is it in the downstairs shower where you left it to drain the last time you used it? No?
Memory is a complicated system. It involves several parts of the brain. These parts are engaged in memory creation, storage, and recall. Failure in any one of those systems results in a failure of memory.
People with ADHD are known to have memory issues. Are these issues related to creation, storage, or recall? Good question.
I suspect that recall is not the issue, though I can't be sure. My reason for believing recall isn't the problem is simply that my mind seems engaged in recall constantly. It recalls things all the time, things I don't even need to think about.
Things happen in this ADHD life that make me glad I'm aware of what goes on in my head.
But even still, there are disappointments aplenty. In fact, there are times when I get fairly depressed.
And when that happens, it can be a self-perpetuating situation. The depression can cause stress, the stress can exacerbate the symptoms, the symptoms can cause more disappointments and the disappointments can increase the depression.
I know lots of people who might well qualify for an ADHD diagnosis. But, for various reasons, they don't have one.
Some aren't aware that they have ADHD, some are aware that they don't want to have ADHD, some deny its existence even in the face of them having been able to write the list of symptoms just by writing down the things they would change about themselves and their lives … if they could.
And who am I to tell them they need to admit, accept, get tested? Who am I? I'm no one.
I have ADHD, and I'm a writer. I write songs, poems, short stories, long stories, and of course, blog posts. This would be one of those.
And as a writer, I view literacy as an integral part of my ability to make a living. You see, if no one can read, I'm not really needed to do this writing thing, right?
So I do what I can to promote literacy. And one thing I can do is support the library system and concept as much as possible.
If you have ADHD, like I do, you probably are familiar with the dreaded stack of random papers. I have several around my house. ... ah, who am I kidding, I have several in each room of my house.
How did they get there? I have no idea. At first there's just one paper. And then there will be two. But those two have something in common. They're maybe both bills, or both information on coming events, you know, they go together.
And the great thing about that is when I put one on top of the other, I got a glimmer of hope. If these two papers really do go together, maybe that means I'm becoming more organized.
It's over five years now since I was diagnosed with Adult ADHD. And just like getting over some virus that seems to hang on for ever, it's been a long slow recovery from that initial shock.
And also like that long slow recovery, I realized that the changes brought about by awareness and knowledge have made a difference only recently and only in retrospect.
Like taking a deep breath one day and realizing this is the first time you've been able to do that in a long time, I realized that I'm finally able to get through a day without thinking about having ADHD at every turn.
Do you have ADHD primarily hyperactive? Or maybe ADHD combined subtype? If so, you know the sensation of always being on the go.
I wrote a couple of blog posts about my last weekend last Friday and Monday and I listed all the things I attended and some things I attended to.
And of course, there was normal activity as well. Or at least, it was normal for me.
It may not seem like it at times, it may not seem like it ever, but there are occasions when I don't have a clue what to say.
I mean here in my blog. I am very rarely at a loss for words in person. In fact, it often seems that I don't really need to have anything to say in order to talk.
I know this because I often talk to myself, and every now and then I have to interrupt myself and ask if there might be an actual point to what I'm saying coming up any time soon ...
But my blog is not idle chatter. Or at least it's not supposed to be. It's supposed to be a discussion of what I know about ADHD and what I experience in a life with ADHD.
ADHD doesn't affect us all the time. It only affects us right now. Here in the present is the only time that awareness of ADHD matters.
If that sounds like a lie, well, I guess it might be. But the truth lies very close to it.
The first truth, in order of happening, is this: That the past is the past. It has happened. It is over. There is no way you can undo it.
And the second truth is this: Now is the time you can change. The present is the only time you have some moderate sway over. This is the only time you can act on decisions. Yes, the things you do will have a visible effect on the future, but the random stuff that happens will have the bigger effect, the final say.