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Sometimes life seems overly complicated. Sometimes it is brought on by my own actions. And sometimes it just seems that life's complications catch up to me.
Sometimes life isn't complicated. But it's been my experience that that will never last, I'll complicate it.
I know that when it seems like life's complications catch up to me, it's usually the result of my not having paid attention. I might have recognized the trouble coming, if I'd taken the time to assemble the clues on the calendar and in my mind.
I'm a quiet kind of guy. I don't really have a lot to say. And that's true of today too. I really shouldn't be writing a blog post. I got nothing.
So, half that opening paragraph was a lie. It's true that I often don't have anything to say, but it's pretty rare that that stops me from running my mouth.
And even if I do have some small thing to say, I am often guilty of saying too much.
I'll tell you this much for free, I don't mind hard work. In fact, I enjoy the sense of accomplishment.
But I do hate doing more than I should have had to do because of my ADHD. And this week has been bad for that.
“What's that about?” you ask? Well, let me just tell you.
When I'm working unsupervised, which is most of the time, several things that can be directly attributed to ADHD symptoms can make extra work for me.
I am aware that there is a disconnect between the systems that determine guilt and punishment, and the systems that would be needed to remediate the failed aspects of a person's makeup that allow criminal behavior.
I'm also aware that the percentage of people with ADHD is significantly higher among inmates of correctional facilities than the percentage of same in the "free" world.
And this makes me aware that we punish after the fact, rather than repair before the need for punishment. The so called “correctional systems” that encompass arrest, trial and punishment are meant to be a deterrent. Rarely do these systems actually rectify the issues and characteristics that cause the problems they are in place to deal with.
I've finally found something that I can concentrate on, focus on, pay attention to ... It's not a good thing.
I'm having some breathing troubles … again. And it's not easy to ignore the feeling that there's no oxygen in the room.
As a person with ADHD who has a fair share of the hyperactive attributes in his combined type mix, I often discover that my breath is being kept from me when I become active.
I'm on vacation. Yes. Right now. I'm sitting in a chair, looking out over a vast expanse of open water, my feet up, my soul filled with contentment, my mind … well, never mind what my mind is doing.
So why am I writing a blog post while I'm on vacation? Because … well ... because, shut up, that's why.
Honestly, I don't know why. I could have taken the week off and caught up next week. Or I could have scheduled a post or two in advance and been free of the burden of upcoming deadlines.
But instead, I just thought, “Lets see what happens.”
I don't do art. But I love art.
Okay, I'm getting the evil eye from folks who think that photography is an art form. And I'd say they are right, it is. And I do that.
Also, I should mention that I am thinking of the visual arts here. I'm not excluding music, poetry and literature from the arts, I'm just not talking about them in this post.
And so, what I meant to say was, I do not draw or paint or sculpt. I doodle sometimes, but not like I did in school when there was nothing else interesting to do.
Everyone multitasks. Or at least they believe they multitask. The truth is that they actually do little parts of multiple tasks in alternating sequence. Few people can actually do more than one thing at a time.
But that “parts of multiple tasks in alternating sequence” thing, that's pretty good. And if we're going to look at humankind's abilities and say that within those abilities this is what we're calling multitasking, than yeah, we all do that.
And some of us do it more than others, better than others also. Like any other activity in our arsenal, there is a spectrum of competence. But ...
I had a great idea for a blog post today. It was so good I thought I'd never forget it. You're reading this instead.
But you know, for the most part, I write things down now. I have a note pad and a pen in my pocket at all times. And sometimes when it's time to write a post, all I have to do is read my note pad and there are a whole bunch of ideas.
Admittedly, some of them sounded better before I wrote them down. Somehow a lot of them lose something in the brewing and steeping that occurs in my pocket after being recorded.
For people with ADHD, relaxing is something we just barely understand the idea of. And while we are aware of how it is supposed to work, few of us have truly experienced relaxation for more than a moment or two at a time.
In fact, for some of us, the thought of sitting still and quiet is unnerving. And actually doing that? Sitting still and quiet? That's been a threat of punishment for us since grade school.
What exactly is relaxing? For most of the world, relaxing involves sitting still and meditating or maintaining our mind calmly and quietly. Often when people “go” to relax it involves finding a place where responsibilities don't exist and then wallowing in that lack of responsibility.