It’s Friday. Two Fridays ago I kinda went on a rant. Last week was Black Friday so we had to pay some attention to that. This week I’m heading in a different direction. Today I want to talk about meditation. I may get in trouble for this, but I’m gonna suggest you go to church.
Okay, you got me, I’m not exactly a church going kind of guy. In fact, my beliefs are not really in line with churches as we know them. But I want to tell you about my recent experiences.
As happens all to often, the Holiday took precedent over the actual thanks giving. I think it would be a great thing to set aside a weekend to actually be thankful, or a day. Well, maybe an hour? But we’d have to keep it a secret, or some clever soul would come up with some way to obligate us to spend money.
But I need more than a shelter from the marketing storm
You see, if you have ADHD, you possibly didn’t spend much of last weekend being thankful. I know I didn’t. There were things to worry about, things to do. And I have trouble being mindful enough to be thankful. Being thankful means gathering thoughts of what to be thankful for.
ADHD means never having to say “I thought it through carefully.” In fact, having ADHD means that you probably have a basement, several closets, and a garage full of things that were purchased without the burden of thought.
Black Friday is an ADHD storm of complex construction. Take one part mob mentality, one part impulse buying, and one part credit abuse, mix thoroughly in a mall or big box store after extracting executive function and removing pesky time management & perception skills.
So last week, we got ourselves diagnosed. It was difficult, but worth it. Then we found our way through the ADHD maze. On Friday I went on a bit of a rant. Sorry. Good for my stats, not for disseminating information. But it’s okay now, I got it out of my system.
“Maps! Maps! Get your maps here.”
Today, we’re going to embark on a journey through the rest of our lives. No, don’t go yet. This isn’t a bus tour, there’s no tour guide. We’ll have a meeting here, then head out on our own. We can keep in touch, but we all have different things to do. I, for instance, have to clean out my dining room so my motorcycles will fit in there.
Well, good news. You can take the test. Oh, yeah, that’s right, you can get your friend to take the test. It’s completely anonymous so no one will ever know you did it, just you … and your friend.
Why are people being denied access to diagnosis, or even education about ADHD? Why is it not on the initial list of things looked at during a psychiatric evaluation? If it turns out you have ADHD, and not Bipolar Disorder or OCD, you are in a group whose treatment is potentially more effective. If you have ADHD AND Bipolar Disorder or OCD, you are going to need attention paid to all of your mental health issues. If you don’t have ADHD, you’ve ruled out a big area of potential diagnostic confusion.
On Monday we managed to get ourselves diagnosed. Today lets talk about what to do with that diagnosis. I, for one, went headlong into the process of educating myself about ADHD. I learned what it is, and what it is not. It was a few months before I began to realize that ADHD is not something that can be defined definitively, if I may use that twisted phrase.
What I mean is that ADHD is a Symptom Spectrum Disorder and none of us have all the symptoms. Some of the symptoms are conflicting, or at least the manifestations of them would seem to be polar opposites.
For example, some of us are neat freaks and some of us can’t find anything if someone cleans up their space. I’m okay with you cleaning up my space, but I don’t mind the mess either. I’m in the middle on this one. How politically correct of me, eh?
There are always new ADHD diagnoses among children. The plain fact is, if there is a group of 100 children and none are diagnosed with ADHD, than someone should be looking very closely at them. Someone should be making sure the ones who might be there, the ones who might need help, aren’t being missed.
Diagnosis among children is to be expected. But in my age group there have been a number of new diagnoses. And there are more who would benefit from a diagnosis. I am aware that when we were at the age when diagnosis would have been the norm, ADHD was not the norm. ADHD, in fact, was virtually unknown, virtually unheard of. When I was in school, ADHD was known in the mental health community as Minimal Brain Dysfunction. Who in the whole wide world would have wanted that for a label. We’d have been shunned by the cool kids, the ones with more acceptable disorders. We’d have tried to adopt initials, MBD, to compete with others whose disorders have acronyms … you know who you are.
Can I help it if I forget what I came in here for? Yes, I can. I could say to myself, “I’m going to get my glasses, I’m going to get my glasses, I’m going to get my glasses” until I get to the room I was headed for and get them. I could do that, if I remembered that I need to do that at the outset. But even if I did do that, my potential for success is only increased marginally, it certainly isn’t 100%.
And even if I do succeed, this time, it isn’t worth it. The cost to my self esteem is too great. Having to treat myself like a child, having to force myself to behave like a child, to compensate for a uniqueness in my brain function that won’t be cured is too great a price. And I have to add to that the lost brain time that was spent chanting my mantra of the moment when I could have been engaging in random associations of current perceptions with previously gathered data.